Radio Overhead - Chapter 1

This is only a draft so there might be some typo or grammatical error. And the story might change later.

Chapter 1

Kate

This is all a big joke. Tomorrow I will wake up and he will be there beside me, sleeping peacefully like there’s nothing wrong. My mind can’t register the information that those people are trying to say to me.

“Shh. He’s gone. I’m sorry.” Someone said to me but I’m already falling apart and it’s getting harder for my lungs to function. I’m hyperventilating aren’t I? I’m not sure. This kind of pain never happened to me before. Before I knew it Oblivion eats me whole, mocking me of the pain inside my chest.

Have you experienced falling in love? Do you ever have that someone who just slowly crept inside your heart and unexpectedly became your forever? Do you ever felt so broken that everything became a pallet of dark colours? The universe was so cruel. They gave him to me just to be taken away. It’s such a cruel joke. My life is such a cruel joke. It was fucked up and screwed. It was a hunting melody.

I can still remember the first time I saw him. I’m only fifteen and the only thing inside my head was my dreams and my love and passion for music. I’ve never been interested in boys or romance. I guess the title that my friends gave to me was well fitted in my emotional view. I’m the Ice Princess, the girl who had many admirers but no one had ever conquered. Teenagers were silly beings and they can be dangerous. And the last thing I wanted is distraction and danger. But he came to my life like he was destined to be.

The reason why I’m popular is because of my green eyes. When you live in a place where everyone has black hair and black eyes, you’ll become the public’s amusement. I just ignored it to my heart’s content. But when you see a person with mesmerizing blue eyes and a hair with the color of the sun, I finally understood why people tend to look at me. Because I’m different, I can easily catch their attention.

That’s how I felt when I saw him.

It’s not entirely my fault when my shoe lace got stuck in an escalator and if not for a kind hearted blue eyed Blonde guy I would not be here in this world anymore.

It happened one Saturday afternoon in a nearby mall. I didn’t notice that my shoe lace was untied but when it got stock in the escalator, I felt fear. That moment stop and for the very first time in my life I felt a rush. It was my adrenaline. When time moves again, two strong hands pulled me up, leaving my sneakers stuck on that bitchy escalator. And the moment I was saved, I started laughing. I never thought I would love having that kind of feeling. I guess I’m secretly craving from adventure and danger.

“Are you ok?” Blondie asked me amused.

When I noticed that we’re practically on the floor and I’m resting on top off him, I blushed and immediately stand up.

“Thank you.” I said.

“I’m sorry I can’t save your sneaker.” He teased.

Damn my favourite chuck. It looks messy and terrible.

“That was really cool of you.” I chuckled and lift my messy sneaker up and throw it in the trash can.

“I’ll buy you a new pair for you if you want.” He offered.

 I immediately noticed the look in his eyes. He was interested! Is this what people called flirting? Damn he’s hot. Where’s the person who said she’s not interested in boys? Hey you get a grip of yourself.

“Are you asking me on a shopping date?” I asked because I wanted things to be cleared before I assume and I hate assuming.

He laughed at my response and said, “Am I really that easy to read.”

“You don’t have to pity me.” I said.

“Let’s buy some new shoes for you first.” He beamed. “Then I’ll ask you again, for a proper date.”

He winked and he grabbed me not even waiting for my reply which is NO. But damn, who would have neglected free new shoes? Not me.

“I only wear sneakers.” I declared when I notice him looking at girly shoes.

“Thought so.” He chuckled.

“I really don’t understand why you would want to do this for me.”

“Cause I’m bored?”

“Perfect answer.” I rolled my eyes. “You could ask any hot girl in this town and all of them would be willing to go out with you.”

“I don’t usually save damsel in distress and I don’t usually ask anyone to go on a date with me.” He said annoyed. Shit, am I pissing him off?

“Sorry. I just don’t understand why.” I apologized.

He sighed and stopped walking.

“Because I like you.” He blushed. “Isn’t that obvious?”

“You what?” I asked in disbelief. “May I remind you that we’ve only met today, in my most embarrassing moment?”

“Actually,….” He hesitated. “I’ve known you before.”

I stared at him, shocked by the revelation.

“Are you sure it was me?” I asked. “If a hot blue eyed Blondie was lurking around me I would immediately notice you.”

“So you find me hot.” He chuckled amused.

“I uh-” I blushed.

“Now I just like you more. I love it when you blush.”

“Ohh. I love these sneakers.” I said to change the mood. “I’ll buy this.”

“Ok. I’ll pay.” He said taking it from me.

“You really don’t have to.” Please say no.

“I want to.” He grinned. Yes.

“Fine.” I surrendered.

Where did I become such a lucky girl? And where the hell did this guy met me? Does he really like me? And why the hell is my heart skipping a beat. Damn.

“So? When will you tell where did you met me?” I asked him. We are now at some café drinking coffee.

“Well there was this girl who fell on the stairs backstage and I happened to be there to catch her. Ever since that day I can’t forget her. She just simply lurks in my head and completely consumed me. So I’ve been looking for her since that day. I even asked the organizer and found her name in one of the back stage employee. I even read her application form and I found her answers hilarious on those questions like, what’s so good about music and she answered, because it has sound.”

“Stop. Don’t say anything about that anymore. It’s freaking me out.” I blushed.

“I’m not a stalker.” He defended his self but I’m not even thinking about that.

 I remembered that day. It happened a week ago when I’m working on a summer concert that my father used to organize. I personally know the manager so he let me continue what my father started. But there’s this one time when I was in a hurry and accidentally tripped on the stairs and almost fell down but someone caught me and I’m in a rush that I didn’t even say thanks to whoever it is.

“You just save my life twice.” I said apologetically.

“I love the job don’t worry.”

“I’m such a klutz, aren’t I?” I chuckled.

“It’s cute.” He teased. “That’s one of the best days in my life.”

“It’s not.” I laughed. “Are you also working there? I didn’t notice you.”

“I actually came with the band.” My eyes widen at his declaration.

“Holy Shit. Are you serious? Are you in one of them? Damn I love their performance. I always look forward to that concert every summer. They have an amazing bunch of new indie artist.”

“Kinda.” He laughed. “You must really love music.”

“It’s my life.” I beamed. “I always wanted to be an acoustic engineer. They’re so cool. They have sharp ears and they can create amazing sounds. I’m not yet good at it but I’m learning new things from time to time.”

“I knew you would be this cool.” He said. “I’m sure you’ll be one someday.”

“Oh shit. I think I need to go.” I said apologetically. “Thank you for everything.”

I was about to stand up when he stopped me and held my hand in his.

“Wait.” He said. “I really like you. Can we hang out again? Can I have your email?”

“Sure.” I said.

“I’m Toby by the way.” He chuckled. “It’s funny when we’ve been hanging out for hours but you don’t know my name yet.”

“I’m Kate.”

“I know. I love it.”

I blushed. Screw distraction. I really like you too.

Did the doctors induce me with one of their chemicals? Why am I remembering things that have something to do with him? The pain is still there and it’s making me hallucinate of the past that will never be repeated again.

I can still remember that one afternoon when I first visit his apartment. He was supposed to only stay for a month since he’s supporting his brother for performing his first International concert but he decided to stay with me. He asked me to be his girlfriend after hanging out with him for weeks. He surprised me that day.

“An apartment?” I said surprised.

“What? Do you think I would leave my girlfriend?” he grinned. “I’m already 18. I can do whatever I want.”

“Do you think it would be nice to blindfold me?”

His eyes darkened with the idea. I’m getting the response I want.

“Just kidding.” I teased.

“Actually I agree with that.” He smirked. “I would be willing to be you Dom anytime.”

I spluttered the coffee latte I’m drinking and started to cough. Did I hear him right? What did he just said again?

“I saw that BDSM romance you’re reading on your E-book.” He grinned.

My eyes widen at him. Damn. This was so embarrassing.

“What? Boys are allowed to watch porn. It’s no big deal to read some erotic books.” I frowned.

“You really like challenged and danger Kate.” He chuckled. “That’s why I love you.”

Did I just hear him say the L word?

 “Come on let’s go see my apartment.” He beamed. “You would really love it.”

He’s right I really do love it. There were so many musical instruments and he told me the rooms are sound proof. And it’s not an apartment; it’s a house with a small garden at the back! Since when did apartment become a house? Damn him and his surprises. He made it look like a recording studio. I love him more and more every time we see each other.

“I know you would love it. I made it for you.”

“Wow. I’m speechless.”

“You can move here you know.” He said and I looked at him to see if he was serious. He is. He wanted me to live with him. And he knew my situation at the orphanage. He wanted to save me. He just did. No words can tell how I felt that day. That moment I immediately knew that he was my soul mate.

I was really thankful that I started to cry but I can’t say a damn word to thank him so I did the only thing I can. I kissed him passionately and I don’t care if I’m only sixteen back there. I love Toby and he loves me. And I don’t regret loving him.

“I love you Kate.” He muttered beside me.

“I love you too.” I said.

 I noticed the guitars standing side by side on the corner.

“You played guitar?” I asked him as he toyed with my hair curling it to his finger.

“My brother taught me.”

“Can you play for me?” I said.

“Sure thing love. I can’t resist that lovely face of yours.” He chuckled.

He started strumming the first chord and it was one of my favourite songs. Then he sings the lyrics for me. He’s voice might not be that good but it was still lovely.

And now I concede on the night
Of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this fourth line
That I love you, that I love you

I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side

The clock on the TV says 8:39 p.m.
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line I'll say it all over again
That I love you, that I love you

I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go

I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, never let go

But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you

Tears run through my eyes after he finished the whole song. I won’t ever let go. I still won’t even if he’s already gone and my mind finally deciphered that he’s gone and not coming back anymore. And it hurt so much that I better off dead.

“Kate.” Someone knocked and entered my room. At first I thought it was Toby but that would be impossible. He’s never coming back not that he don’t want to, because he can’t.

“Flynn.” I said weakly and slowly standing up. It’s the first time I noticed it. He looked like his brother. Flynn is Toby’s ghost. He just don’t resembles him, they’re similar both physical and inside. And it’s making the pain in my chest more unbearable.

“The doctor said you have to eat.” He sighed. Even their voice is similar.

“It hurts more every time I see you.” I said because I want him to understand how I feel about him right now.

“I’m sorry.” He said and I can’t understand why he looked hurt.

“You’re the only one I have now.” I said trying to bait him to tell him me how he felt. Maybe he doesn’t really like me and he’s just been pretending these past years for the sake of his brother. Maybe he’s going to tell me to get lost.

“I’m always here.” He muttered. “Always. But you never see me. He’s the only one in your sight, even now.”

He’s saying things I can’t understand again. I really hate complicated things.

“Maybe I’ll just back to where I came from.” I said, waiting for him to tell me to get lost.

“If that’s what you want.” He smiled sadly and he looked like he wanted to say more but stop it. There it was again, the hurt in his face.

“I’ll disappear.” I said.

“I’m going to start the band again.” He said.

Is he trying to tell me to stay and help him? I really can’t understand him. But I already made a decision. I’m disappearing from now on.

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