Thursday, June 26, 2014

When We Two Parted

(George Gordon Byron1788 - 1824)

When we two parted 
   In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted 
   To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold, 
   Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold 
   Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning 
   Sunk chill on my brow-- 
It felt like the warning
   Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken, 
   And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken, 
   And share in its shame.

They name thee before me, 
   A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o’er me--
   Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee, 
   Who knew thee too well--
Long, long shall I rue thee, 
   Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met--
   In silence I grieve,
That thy heart could forget, 
   Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee 
   After long years,
How should I greet thee?--
   With silence and tears.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Hey Stranger


How does it feel to be on the other side of the game?
I loved you until you broke me apart.
I never lied but I was hurt.
Hey stranger, how does it feel to be one?

“If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
 If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?”
Says so our favorite song.
Was it true?

You’re selfish, are you aware?
What happened to our forever?
Our fate has been undone,
By our own faults.

We used to be something.
Now you’re just a stranger.
Someone I know.
Someone I refuse to remember.

Friday, June 13, 2014

His and Her Circumstances

    


He loved her at first sight but she doesnt care.
She saw him the very first time and she ignores.
Both grew farther away and a year later……

He took the first move and asked her out.
Shes broken back then so she agreed.
He was so happy that he dreamt of her all the time,
While shes hurting and using him for console.

He found out about her circumstances and tried his best.
She was so touched and thought she fell in love too.
But the feelings of the past never left her alone.

He was hurt so he used his best friend to make her jealous.
It made her sad and decided not to love him anymore.
But they still contact each other and became closer.

He went to dates with her, hug her and hold her hands.
Theyre just friends yet theyre something more.

She still remembers the best friend but she ignored it.
She was confused at him and whom he really loves.

Shes popular but doesnt interact with them.
Hes unpopular and interacts with many girls.
Theyre both playing games of feelings and its hurting them.

Hes changing bit by bit and she noticed.
Theres still the issue of his best friend and her ex.
Plus their distance is growing farther again.
Will this end in tragedy or happy ending?

They could have been perfect together,
If they both effort a little bit.
But fate is cruel and its up to it
To decide his and her circumstances.



Thursday, June 12, 2014

Distant Fields

This song really makes me sad and it makes me sadder to know that it's a real story >.<
It's my favorite version and sung by (Rib) so if you like it please buy the music 

There's a manga of this song but I haven't read it yet. I hope it will be good.
Here's the link if you're interested: http://mangafox.me/manga/sarishinohara/



"サリシノハラ"
Romaji: Sarishinohara

Mikito-P (music, lyrics)
CHRIS (illust, video)
Tomodachi Boshuu-P (mix, mastering)



Taitei no koto ja kujikenai  boku wa kimi to tomo ni aru 
Shuumatsu kaisatsu no mukou  ginga ittousei no kagayaki 

Zaregoto nante mushi shina yo 
Hito wa hiyorimi nanda  shouganai 
Rokujuuchou no saibou kakeru kimi no kaikan o 

Misete kure 

Atarashii tobira no maede  hitori de samishikunai kana 
Isso  shinitai nante  omotteru no kana 
Soredemo kimi ga suki da yo  donna ni yogoreta mirai demo 
Kakushitai kako ga atte mo 

Taitei no koto ja kudakenai  boku wa kimi to tomo ni arushi 
Saizenretsu de te o furu yo  tonai ittousei no egao ni 

Naimono datte nedari nayo 
Kimi wa donyoku nanda  shouganai 
Rokujuuchou no saibou kakeru kimi no ayausa o 

Ikashite kure 

Nekomimi tsuketeta kimi no  FURIRU no EPURON DORESU 
Aa  koi no tameiki wa  kisetsu o koete 
Doredake kimi o nugasete  gamen ni KISU shite mite mo 
Tada  majiwaranai  me to me 

Omotta ijou ni  kimi no me wa 
Emono karu you na surudoi metsuki da 
Omotta ijou ni  sono kata wa 
Ura mo omote mo shoujo o kiwameteta 

Yatto kimi ni aeta no ni 
Hagasareru made toki ga hyakubaisoku da 
Sawaritai  sawaritai  mou ichido 
Kimi no yawai  tenohira ni 

Atarashii tobira no mae de  hitori de samishikunai kana 
Isso  shinitai nante  omotteru no kana 
Soredemo kimi ga suki da yo  donna ni yogoreta mirai demo 
Kamawanai kara 

Nee  boku wa koko da yo  donna ni chiisana sonzai demo 
Kimi ga okashita ayamachi ni  sashikorosarete shimatte mo 

Koko ni iru kara ne


Monday, June 9, 2014

Just Be friends & Answer



Since it's finally raining here I can't stop thinking of something and these two songs I love remind me of it. BTW this two songs are connected ^^ and these are my favorite English version of the song.

music by: Dixie Flatline

Just be friends

 
 Just be friends
All we gotta do is just be friends
It's time to say goodbye- just be friends
All we gotta do is just be friends
Just be friends, just be friends

Yesterday morning I was thinking when it came to me
Like picking up the pieces of some shattered pottery
I wondered 'what the heck is this?' and some blood dripped from my fingertips
So different from what it had been, it cut me by surprise

Deep down inside of me, I knew that it'd be for the best
Though it'd be painful for us both, there is just nothing left
We're caught in this run-around, and it's running me into the ground
I'd tell you, but I don't know if you've even realized

That you and I are in a world that's gradually decaying
This is the only way to get ourselves out of here
You smiled at me weakly, said "Don't think so bleakly"
Then I pulled the plug

I heard your voice shout out to me, hounding
Sounding and rebounding and echoing, all in vain
Nothing remains, nothing's the same, let's just make a clean break
There's nothing keeping us here now we've unfastened the chain
There are no second chances this time, now
They're spent, disconnected, and dead under false veneer
You ask me why, I only sigh, "That's just the way that it is"
And I walk out lest we find out whose dry cheeks were now wet with tears

All we gotta do is just be friends
It's time to say goodbye- just be friends
All we gotta do is just be friends
Just be friends, just be friends

Last night when everything calmed down a bit, I realized
Like picking up the petals of a flower past its prime
Its bloom is gone, there's no going back
Every petal is a death in the palm of my hand
And so, a while ago, our time together simply stopped

I still recall that day when I was introduced to you
When I first saw your smiling face, it melted me right through
But now we've thrown the past away
And we're hurt and hurt each other just to deal with the pain
Our hearts are filled with thorns, but I can't say that I forgot

When we were trudging through the days before I made to end it
When I was pulled in two by my still reluctant mind
Even though I still loved you, I still felt I had to
Tell you that we should break up

There is a rainstorm drenching my heart, and
Dumbfounded and cowering, my vision is watery
My mind's made up, so what is up with this hesitancy?
I'm shaken down to the bone by pain that's running through me
We loosed the bonds and we've let them go, now
The seam has been opened, and it's fading more every day
This is goodbye, at least we tried, but now it's over, my friend
We cannot stay, just walk away and don't ever look back again

If I had a chance, only had one chance
To wish a wish and make that wish come true
If you and I could be born once again, then
After all, I- again, I- I'd still want to meet you

I heard your voice shout out to me, hounding
Sounding and rebounding and echoing, all in vain
Nothing remains, nothing's the same, let's just make a clean break
There's nothing keeping us here now we've unfastened the chain
We loosed the bonds and we've let them go, now
The seam has been opened, and it's fading more every day
This is goodbye, at least we tried, but now it's over, my friend
We cannot stay, just walk away and don't ever look back again

This the end of our love, now

All we gotta do is just be friends
It's time to say goodbye, just be friends
All we gotta do is just be friends
it's time to say goodbye, just be friends
All we gotta do is just be friends, just be friends
It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends


 Answer
 
Passing time and many years after 

Cant rewind these images around me
How time can be so cruel then turn out to be kind
You and I together in our home town 
How can I forget about those hopes now
But nothing stays for long 
Forget it and move on in the end

Our clock had been stopped but now I hear it tick again 
It's telling me I should move on
The sorrow and relief that slowly piled up on me
Are slowly washing far away from me

It's funny how something so deeply cutting into me
Reminds me of something I wanted so bad
And even your voice that's never left my aching ears
Is singing my name out like it always had
It's crazy how something so deeply piercing into me
Reminds me of something I couldn't ever have
So with all thoughts of you and me until the end
I'll keep them all carved into my open hand 

I think I have no regrets, But maybe it's been on my mind
A world in where nothing could go wrong
So we could never part

Maybe I could find a guy to hold me
Many times I thought about a new love
But this time one that would just maybe work out fine
Like a storm that's made it to it's passing 
Yet the calm may not just be a bad thing
My heart ache is long gone 
Forget it and move on in the end

I still don't why when every season goes away
Your voice is singing loud and clear
To times in our lives when we were clearly bound by fate
Bringing up those old sweet memories

It's funny how something so deeply engrained into me
Can light up so brightly until the very end
And even your laugh, not knowing what would lie ahead
Will live on so gladly between my open ears
I'm sorry that something so deeply joining both of us
Was broken by something we couldn't ever have
So long as these feelings are glowing mid the two of us
We'll always and forever ever just be friends




Sunday, June 8, 2014

First Day of School (_ _)


I wonder if this is how it usually felt
            in the first day of school.
I wonder if this unnatural feeling I have
            is because of possibilities.

I just want it to be normal and to not be afraid.
But I guess I'll just have to find out.
So no matter what happens,
I'll have to stand strong.

(- -) First day of school is something I really don't like (but I don't hate it either.)

Quotes 101 #3

A person who truly loves you 
is someone who sees the pain in your eyes, 
while everyone else believes the smile on your face.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Beck

There's only one thing I can say after watching this movie.....
I LOVE MUSIC AND MUSIC IS LIFE!!!!


This movie reminds me how I love music so much, specially rock and indie music. Though Koyuki is inaudible and I wanted so badly to hear his voice, I still love it.



Plot

Maho Minami (Shiori Kutsuna) returns to Japan after studying in New York. Her half brother Ryusuke Minami (Hiro Mizushima) is an ultra talented guitarist. Maho & Ryosuke then meet Koyuki (Takeru Sato ), a fellow young teen whom Maho takes interest in. Soon enough, Ryosuke and Koyuki form a 5 piece rock band named "Beck," while Maho and Koyuki become involved in a romantic relationship.
The band starts to play live shows and grow an enthusiastic following. The release of their debut CD helps to further the band's popularity. People start to notice Koyuki. The band then endures a producer's planned conspiracy and other hardships. Beck then receives an offer to play at a rock festival, but with the unusual stipulation that the band may have to dissolve ...



Monday, June 2, 2014

Solanin

by: Asian Kung-Fu Generation


This is a song from a movie I love and I can't stop listening to it.

 I really like the movie version of the song plus I have a crush on the male lead :3. And this is not a happy movie. I actually cried a lot on this one even though it's not really that sad. I guess it's because I can see my self here and how I can relate myself about saying goodbye unexpectedly. I've encountered so many goodbyes and it's really hard for me. But this song made me realize that somehow or someway, there are things we had to say goodbye to. Everything is not permanent and everything can fall apart unexpectedly. That's why we have to treasure things we value. And as I'm listening on this song in repeat right now, I'm setting free a part of me that said goodbye to a person I loved. 

I won't forget but this is definitely my goodbye.

Sayonara.


And here's the song if ever you want to listen to it  
This is actually a part of the movie ^^ Enjoy!




English Translation


Mistaken thoughts from beyond the sky
A life spent saying goodbye?
The little piece of the future I saw
Was waving goodbye

The small room I once lived in
Is now occupied by someone else
The horrible things I said to you
The days that were wasted

Perhaps if I'd taken that chance, if I could go back to that day
But I'll never be that person again

Even if that frail happiness
had somehow lingered on
A bad seed would surely have sprouted
So I guess this is goodbye

The cold cans of coffee from freezing winters
That long rainbow coloured scarf
I stroll through the back alley
It all comes back to me

Even if that frail happiness
had somehow lingered on
A bad seed would surely have sprouted
So I guess this is goodbye

I guess

Goodbye, that's enough
You can cope anywhere
Goodbye, I'll manage somehow too
Goodbye, that's what I'll do

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Pretentious ~ Synopsis

This is a synopsis from one of my original story.

This is just a draft so there might be some typo or grammatical error. And it's just a synopsis, the story might change later. If you want to read the real story just message me. I'll post my other work too after this one.



In my world, image is the top priority, followed by talent. And in this world it’s hard to find genuine people. Everyone is always acting up for whatever selfish reason they had. It’s fake and I refused to be one of them. I always stick to my real self and that would be the jerk and honest me. I like to be honest and I hate it when I lied. They say it would be bad for the band. Screw them.

“Let’s go grab some coffee.” Our younger brother Cody insisted.

“Fine.” Our manager shrugged. “There’s a Starbucks nearby. I’ll call my son, just tell me what you guys want.”

“How’s Toby doing?” My oldest brother, Sean, and also the last member of the band asked.

“Anti-social as usual.” He frowned.

“Because he’s a nerd.” I said.

“Sam.” Sean warned.

Why does he always take charge? I’m the one who make our music and I’m the band’s leader. He can’t decide things for me.

“Whatever.” I said and immediately got out of the van the moment we stopped. Our manager was furious but I just ignore him. It’s not like I’m going far away. I just want to get some air and I can hide in the parking lot. No one would notice me, ok maybe people will notice but they will just ignore me. That’s what my hat is for.

“Hey Sam.” Toby greeted me. He’s still the same nerd. No wonder people bully him.

“Hey.” I greeted back.

“Uhmm. What flavor is yours?” He asked.

“I didn't order one.”

“Oh, OK.” He said and went inside the van.

A few minutes later he came back outside.

“See you tomorrow Sam.”

“Bring your friends backstage.” I said because I’m hoping they will treat him well if they find out he’s a friend of ours. We've been friends since kids.

“I’m not like you guys.” He said mad. Shit. What did I do again? I’m really such a jerk. I didn't know it would offend him. “I don’t need to be popular.”

“I just want to help.” I explained.

“I don’t need your help!” He yelled and dashed off.

I screwed it up again. Just like I always do, I acted like a jerk.

“Leave me alone!” I heard him yelled frantically.

He’s being surrounded by five boys. The situation looks dangerous. I was about to help when what he said suddenly rang to my ears. He said he doesn't need my help. He’s right. It would only make him more pathetic if I help him. He needs to do this alone. I would watch and if I ever saw it going the bad way I’ll go help him. I just hope it won’t turn out that way. Toby’s nice and I like him. He doesn't deserve to be treated like this.

I was busy in my thought that I didn't notice the girl near me. Who the hell is this? Good thing I’m hidden from the shadow. No one hasn't seen me yet.

She moved her body and it’s now half facing me. I can clearly see how beautiful this girl is and she did something I never expect she would. She kicked the can to the jackass bullying Toby. And in my peripheral vision it was really hot. Nothing can’t explain the thing I’m feeling right now.

The guy went after her slowly. Shit what should I do? Should I help her?

Then I saw Toby running away towards his car. He’s a nice person but he’s really a coward. I've never been pissed at him until now. He shouldn't have left this girl alone with this other guys.

I‘m about to help her but then she moved so fast. I didn't even have time to blink. Who would have thought a girl doing a wrestling technique would be this irresistibly hot? She made me turned on right now.

“Damn that’s hot.” I carefully approached her while applauding. What the hell am I thinking exposing myself? I just hope she won’t scream my name. But what I saw in her face is priceless. She’s confused and it’s too damn cute.

I've been watching here long before you came.” I explained. “And that Van you’re kneeling right now is mine.” Shit, am I being a jerk again? I don’t want to screw this up. There’s something about her that draws me in.

“Sorry.” She said annoyed.

And she’s accusing me of not helping Toby?! I was about to until she takes on the scene. How can I do something when everything happened so fast, plus the person involve was not even here.

Wait did I just hear her say rapist or kidnapper?

“You don’t know who I am?” I asked surprised.

She doesn't know who I am! What the hell. It suddenly hurt my ego.

“Go to hell.” She said and nothing hurts more than those words from her mouth. I just wanted to disappear right now.

I called out to her but she disappeared in the dark and whoever this girl, I will find her. And find out everything about her.