Picture from APOD (March 2 2013)
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Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Dream Big
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Astronomy Picture of the Day 2014 November 25 |
Maybe we are just
a tiny speck of dust in the midst of a storm. Or this galaxy we called home is
really just a super cell in a living organism. Or maybe the galaxy itself is a
one big living breathing bacteria. Who knows right?
They say there
are too many dark matters and dark energy in the universe and the universe is expanding
with an accelerating speed.
We never really
knew the mystery behind it. There’s so much to know.
Would you believe me if I told you that
I always dream of an alternative parallel world? A real one I mean. You won’t
right? And I now you’ll say behind the screen that ‘what is this girl talking
about? She’s really not that smart’. Well you got it right my dear friend. I
never had the best grade, if you look at my grades you’ll laugh, I failed some
of them. Studying is always something I really don’t like doing so I never
tried. If you want to know my IQ the test said it’s 130. We’ll I had no idea if
that was accurate. It’s just a test from a random website. Plus my IQ depends
on my mood. Sometimes when I really don’t feel like doing anything I don’t use
my thinking at all. In fact I don’t think most of the time. That’s the sad
reality of my life, I don’t think at all.
It’s not the matter here so let’s
forget about my brain.
Did you ever have that feeling that
even though something is so impossible to happen you still believe it would
happen?
You know almost everyone wish to be
able to go to the space that’s why young people and really smart one tried
their best to accomplish that dream humans created centuries ago. I’m one of
them but because of a very selfish reason.
You know how kids often whined to their
parents that they really wanted to go to Disneyland? I’ve never been that kind
of kid, instead I cried to myself, alone, when nobody was looking. It all
started when we drew that stupid ‘what do you want to be in the future’. I’m an
artist so mine was the best, but that’s not the issue here, it was my dream. I
wrote……I want to be a space adventurer someday. Nobody laugh at my dream and my
classmates are really nice about it. Then my teacher told me about NASA and how
I was so amazed to know a place like that exists. But that dream was crash.
I went home giddily and told my parents
I’m going to work there. They’re nice about it and told me I can do it because I’m
a bright young kid. But then I heard the harsh reality when they thought I’m
not listening. There’s no way I’m going to be able to work there because I’m
just a nobody from a nobody family from a nobody country. I mean I’m not even a
U.S. citizen and that place is in U.S. Maybe ever since then I became a person
who don’t like studying that much because I know it won’t be of any use at all
so instead of studying I devour myself in arts, music and novel books.
That was years and years ago, ancient history.
So why am I writing about this now? Because today our teacher told us that we
need to find a company for our summer job training (for those who don’t know I’m
majoring in Electronics Engineering). And she told us that we have to choose
the field that we really love. Most of my classmates choose telecommunications
and broadcasting and here I am drowning in my own miseries because neither choice
is in my interest.
And that’s where it hit me again, like
a tidal wave with a summer breeze. It came crashing without warning.
I dreamt of the universe and its
illuminating rays of radiation light in sparkling violet and orange and I was
in the middle floating together with billions of stars, reaching out to
something or maybe even to someone. I don’t know it’s very vague. That’s the
dream that hunt my childhood memories and the moment I gain my sanity it will always
disappear and will only leave a trace that it’s been there in my head again.
That’s why I realized, maybe I never
really give up on my dream. And maybe that dream is a representation of my subconscious
mind telling me that even though I’m not like Stephen Hawking or Galileo, I’m
still capable of doing something big. That’s it right? Because I know I won’t
choose this course if not for that. And I know I won’t be addicted to solving
calculus, integral calculus, differential equation, mechanics, Laplace and blah
blah blah (except for Algebra).
So here I am, one human from planet
earth, dreaming to be able to travel the galaxy and befriend another being from
another planet just because she used to dream about them when she was a child. That
is my selfish reason and also because there’s a vague part in my memory about
the parallel world. I call it that but people call it Déjà vu. In my own world
and theory, that is a memory that relapses from your other lives in other
worlds. And I want to know what will happen if the two beings crossed path.
That’s a very selfish reason. I told you so.
So why do I write this again or rather I
mean type this again?
Hoping that these words reach someone
and I want you, that someone, to look back, see if that is really what you want.
Because it’s never too late to give up on something as long as you’re alive.
Look at me, the girl whose really not so bright, trying so hard to study Aerodynamics
(that I've just started reading a few minutes ago) even though it’s against the
way I live. I’m trying to break that wall and hoping that maybe, few years from
now………I will really become one of NASA’s personnel. Though in my calculation
there’s only a 0.00007654% chance for me.
(I lied. I really didn’t solve that but
my guts told me it’s accurate XD).
Anyway I’m just so overwhelmed right
now researching for reference books that will increase my percentage of
becoming an Astronaut.
So you, yes you, the one on the other
side reading this, I’m not telling you do become an Astronaut. I just want you
to dream big and let the miracle work for itself. Kidding! We need to work
hard! Even though in my case I’m a very lazy person so working hard is not in
my vocabulary. Still it won’t hurt me to dream right? I’ve been neglecting it
for years. I have to at least try.
(And you guys there at NASA……well there’s
really nothing I can say about you. But you guys are really amazing. I wish my
brain is like Newton so my percentage would definitely go up. :3)
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
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